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Out October: Not A Single Soul In My Frat Knew I Was Gay



Today’s Out October Project story comes from Woody Amidon, a man who was afraid to let all of his fraternity brothers see him for who he really was. Although afraid of the ridicule and the humiliation, he was able to find his strength and the courage to be honest and true to who he was, and to his friends. He was met with shocking support and lasting friendships. His story should shed light and hope onto the peoples’ lives who are still afraid to be who they really are.

When I entered college, not a single soul knew that I was gay. I was an athlete, in a fraternity, and acted just like any bro I hung out with. Hell, I wouldn’t believe that I liked guys myself. I felt that I could force myself to be straight. I would drink heavily and hooked up with a few girls (very unsuccessfully most of the time), but I would just blame it on the alcohol.

My sophomore year, I began to drink more and more and started becoming depressed every night that I returned home alone. I started to “give up” and knew that it seemed to become impossible for me to actually be straight. I retreated to myself and began to become isolated from those around me instead of reaching out and trying to find others that could help me, like my school’s gay and lesbian alliance. There was one guy in my fraternity that was out, but I was afraid of getting too close to him thinking that people would begin to suspect that I was gay for simply talking to him, so I kept my distance. I can even remember some of the things people said when he was pledging and I did not want that kind of treatment put on me.

At the end of my Sophomore year and the beginning of my Junior, Prop 8 was becoming more and more of an issue in California as the vote approached. The general consensus on my campus was against the measure but the loudest voices were the ones supporting it. Hearing those around me constantly saying how wrong being gay was and the hate I could see some people have, my depression only got worse. I began to hate myself and it was only getting harder to hide my emotions from others, especially when drinking.

I began to find comfort with talking with other gay people online. The people I met there were the first ones I was freely able to talk about my sexuality with; I felt free to be able to mention anything! I met one guy in particular that had many of the same interests as me and we hit it off. We flirted constantly and it made me start to feel good about myself again. We made plans to finally meet at an anti-Prop 8 rally a week before the vote so I secretly snuck out of my Fraternity house to meet him. I was so paranoid that my friends would find out where I was and tried to dodge the news cameras at the rally, just in case.

After hanging out with this guy a few times, we began dating. This was when my friends began to notice my disappearing act. I would leave the house for a whole night without telling anyone, multiple nights a week. Whenever someone would ask where I was going or where I had been lately, I would brush it off with a joke and change subjects. Rumors began to circulate that I was sleeping with a professor or that I had a drug problem. Strangely, none of the rumors involved me being gay.

After a few months of living two separate lives, my best friend saw an incoming text message from my boyfriend that said, “kiss”. I played it off as a joke between me and a friend but I vowed that I needed to tell him the truth. That night was one of our fraternity theme parties, where I knew I’d be getting drunk that night so I decided I would get myself to tell him. After downing a good amount of beer, I realized that it was time to tell him, so I walked upstairs to his room, but he was hooking up with some girl. I mustered up all that strength to tell someone so I was determined to do it.

My friend Neil was sitting in his room across the hall so I go in and tell him that I had to tell him something. I shut the door and sit on his bed, and flat out tell him. He was cool about it but the next day I remembered how awkward it must have been for him. I was drunk, slurring all my words, and I come into his room announcing that I’m gay, all dressed as a “Barbeerian” from the theme party, which is a barbarian costume made completely out of beer boxes.

About 8 months went by and I told a few more people but by the time my one year anniversary with my boyfriend started to come around, he started getting restless that he could not be a part of my life, considering that I could count the amount of my friends that knew I was gay on one hand. So at one of my fraternity meetings, in a room full of over 90 restless bros, the President was wrapping up the meeting but I stood up, interrupted him, and told everyone I had one more thing to say. I said that they all had probably noticed that I was barely around anymore and constantly disappeared without mentioning where I was going or doing and that there were numerous rumors about my whereabouts. So I forced out the three words “I am gay” and quickly sat down, staring at the floor.

There was a pause for a few seconds as the shockwave hit everyone in the room and my head was about to explode from the anxiety of what was going to happen. How could they possibly react to hearing that? Would they tell me to leave? Would they awkwardly move on like nothing had happened? Would they say, “Duh!”

Then thankfully someone snapped out of the silence and started clapping which got the whole room to applaud. After the meeting many brothers came up to me and congratulated me. I was legitimately surprised at many of them.

As a few days went by, the news spread throughout campus. There were only about 20 out guys on the whole campus and I was a very visible member of our community so everybody talked. Very few actually came up and talked to me directly but I could overhear conversations and saw peoples’ faces when I would walk by. I dealt with it and after a few weeks, the campus found something else to gossip about.

Hanging out with my friends was a little awkward at first because I was used to talking about chicks but I was able to transition over to my real self and not have to keep track of all the lies I was telling. At the end of that year, I was even able to bring my new boyfriend to our formal dance. He fit right in and all of my fraternity brothers and their dates loved him. It was that weekend where I finally felt the brotherhood that I was searching for since I first pledged that Fraternity four years earlier. They accepted me for who I was and loved me no matter what. Even though fraternities are stereotypically homophobic, my fraternity experience let me be more comfortable with who I am and made me stronger to stand up for myself. Without them, I could never have seen that strong of support from so many straight guys, and I will always be thankful for that.

Remember, there are always options.
The Trevor Project: a 24-hour hotline for gay and questioning youth: 866-4-U-TREVOR (488-7386)
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-273-TALK (8255)

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Catholic Archbishop Defies Vatican by Banning Speaker Nancy Pelosi From Holy Communion – via Twitter



Calling her stance on abortion a “most serious scandal,” and a “grave evil” San Francisco Archbishop Salvatore Cordileone publicly announced Friday that Speaker of the House Nancy Pelosi, whose district encompasses his diocese, is now banned from taking Holy Communion.

Archbishop Cordileone, a far right activist who repeatedly has challenged Pope Francis, is now in violation of directions from the Vatican to not politicize the Sacraments. Cordileone’s very public decree – made via Twitter – comes just weeks before the U.S. Supreme Court is set to rule on a case that is expected to overturn Roe v. Wade.

“After numerous attempts to speak with Speaker Pelosi to help her understand the grave evil she is perpetrating, the scandal she is causing, an the danger to her own soul she is risking, I have determined that she is not to be admitted to Holy Communion,” Cordileone tweeted, an apparent attempt to embarrass to the greatest degree possible the Democrat who is second in line to the Presidency,

“I am hereby notifying you that you are not to present yourself for Holy Communion and, should you do so, you are not to be admitted to Holy Communion, until such time as you publically [sic] repudiate your advocacy for the legitimacy of abortion and confess and receive absolution of this grave sin in the sacrament of Penance,” Cordileone wrote in that letter to the Speaker.

Fox News calls it “an escalation in a decades-long tension between the Roman Catholic Church and liberal Democratic politicians on abortion,” but in fact other extremist archbishops have taken the same stance against other notable Democrats.

Catholics believe the Pope is God’s infallible representative on earth. Last fall Pope Francis chastised far right Catholic bishops in America who were gearing up to ban President Joe Biden from receiving Holy Communion. In June the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops (USCCB) overwhelmingly voted to move toward chastising Biden for his abortion stance, despite the Vatican issuing a clear warning they were not to do so.

President Biden is a devout Catholic who personally opposes abortion but knows as President it is his role to uphold a woman’s right to choose, something has has worked strongly to support and strongly believes in.

“What must the pastor do?” Pope Francis said, The New York Times reported last September when a reporter asked him about President Biden and abortion. “Be a pastor, don’t go condemning. Be a pastor, because he is a pastor also for the excommunicated.”

“I have never refused the eucharist to anyone,” Pope Francis told reporters. The Times aded Francis said bishops should be pastors not politicians.

The Pope also told reporters, “communion is not a prize for the perfect,” and “the eucharist is not the reward of saints but the bread of sinners.”

The San Francisco Chronicle adds that Pope Francis “welcomed Biden for a private meeting at the Vatican last fall and Biden said the Pope told him he was a ‘good Catholic.’ Biden received Communion at St. Peter’s during that trip.”


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‘Sordid, Corrupt, Lawless’: Experts Call New Ginni Thomas Revelations ‘Breathtaking’ and Ask ‘What Did Her Husband Know?’



The latest revelations about the actions of Ginni Thomas, the far right wing activist, lobbyist, and spouse of a sitting U.S. Supreme Court justice who had unprecedented access to the Trump White House are leading experts to demand Clarence Thomas’ recusal while calling the combination of their actions “breathtaking corruption,” and noting the Justice’s extraordinary hypocrisy.

Later Friday morning The Washington Post reported that Ginni Thomas pressed two Arizona lawmakers to overturn the will of Arizona’s voters in the 2020 presidential election by choosing a “clean” slate of electors, representing Donald Trump and not Joe Biden. The Post notes Thomas did not mention any candidate by name but reports “the context was clear.”

“Before you choose your state’s Electors … consider what will happen to the nation we all love if you don’t stand up and lead,” an email bearing Ginni Thomas’ name, sent to the Arizona lawmakers, reads.

It included a link to a video of a man delivering a message meant for swing-state lawmakers, urging them to “put things right” and “not give in to cowardice.”

“You have only hours to act,” said the speaker, who is not identified in the video.

Thomas also pressed Trump White House chief of staff Mark Meadows to work to overturn the election, as has been widely reported.

Her efforts, combined with Justice Thomas’ actions on the Supreme Court, amount to “breathtaking corruption,” writes Slate’s legal expert Mark Joseph Stern.

“The conflict of interest between Ginni and Clarence Thomas has never been greater. While Clarence was applying the ‘independent state legislature doctrine’ from the bench, Ginni was using the exact same theory to try to overturn the 2020 election. Just breathtaking corruption,” Stern says.

He adds:

Former federal prosecutor Joyce Vance, now an NBC News/MSNBC legal analyst and law professor, issued a strong warning:

“Either Justice Thomas recuses in every case that comes to the Court where his wife is heavily involved in the action or the public’s confidence in the Court will be damaged beyond repair.”

Reuters reporter covering the U.S. Supreme Court, Lawrence Hurley:

Former federal corruption prosecutor Noah Bookbinder, who is president of Citizens for Responsibility and Ethics in Washington (CREW) says it is “outrageous” Justice Thomas has refused to recuse:

“New evidence that Ginni Thomas’s participation in efforts to overturn the 2020 election was even greater than we knew; in this case pressure on AZ legislators to overturn that state’s vote. Makes it even more outrageous that Justice Thomas did not recuse.”

“Wow!” exclaimed Pulitzer Prize winning journalist and former New York Times columnist Nicholas Kristof. “Ginni Thomas, wife of Supreme Court Justice Clarence Thomas, pressed Arizona legislators to overturn Biden’s win and choose a ‘clean slate of electors.’ In other words, she supported a coup to overthrow an elected president. What did her husband know?”

Economist and frequent political commentator David Rothschild observes, “Ginni Thomas was conspiring with high ranking Republicans to overturn [the] republic, and her husband was either privy to or actively involved in this conspiracy before using his position to coverup his wife’s role.”

Former SDNY Asst. U.S. Attorney Richard Signorelli sums up:


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Ginni Thomas Also Pressed Arizona Lawmakers to Overturn 2020 Election: ‘Stand Strong’



Far right wing activist, lobbyist, and spouse of a U.S. Supreme Court justice, Ginni Thomas pressed lawmakers in Arizona to overturn the results of the 2020 presidential election. In emails she urged them to “stand strong in the face of political and media pressure,” and send a “clean slate” of electors, falsely claiming the choice is “yours and yours alone.”

“The emails, sent by Ginni Thomas to a pair of lawmakers on Nov. 9, 2020, argued that legislators needed to intervene because the vote had been marred by fraud. Though she did not mention either candidate by name, the context was clear,” reports The Washington Post, which broke the news Friday. “In sending the emails, Thomas played a role in the extraordinary scheme to keep Trump in office by substituting the will of legislatures for the will of voters.”

Thomas also pressed then-White House chief of staff Mark Meadows to overturn the election in an exchange of text messages that spanned several months.

Justice Clarence Thomas has also come under fire for not recusing himself in matters related to his wife’s actions.

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