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  • 'Fix Society': 17 Year Old Transgender Teen Leaves Suicide Note Blaming Her Christian Parents

    A 17-year old Ohio transgender teenager scheduled her suicide note on her Tumblr page. She died after being hit by a truck, but not before blaming her Christian parents.

    Leelah Alcorn was 17. She kept an active Tumblr blog, and scheduled a suicide note to post on Sunday.

    "If you are reading this, it means that I have committed suicide and obviously failed to delete this post from my queue," the post reads. 

    "Please don’t be sad, it’s for the better," she wrote. "The life I would’ve lived isn’t worth living in… because I’m transgender. I could go into detail explaining why I feel that way, but this note is probably going to be lengthy enough as it is. To put it simply, I feel like a girl trapped in a boy’s body, and I’ve felt that way ever since I was 4. I never knew there was a word for that feeling, nor was it possible for a boy to become a girl, so I never told anyone and I just continued to do traditionally 'boyish' things to try to fit in."


    Leelah goes on to say that she felt she was a girl since she was four, and didn't learn what being transgender was until she was 14. When she did, she "cried of happiness."

    After 10 years of confusion I finally understood who I was. I immediately told my mom, and she reacted extremely negatively, telling me that it was a phase, that I would never truly be a girl, that God doesn’t make mistakes, that I am wrong.

    Her final words in the note were "Fix society. Please." And she begged parents to offer support, not condemnation. "If you are reading this, parents, please don’t tell this to your kids. Even if you are Christian or are against transgender people don’t ever say that to someone, especially your kid. That won’t do anything but make them hate them self. That’s exactly what it did to me."

    Leelah was not shy about placing blame on her parents.


    "My mom started taking me to a therapist," she said, "but would only take me to christian therapists, (who were all very biased) so I never actually got the therapy I needed to cure me of my depression. I only got more christians telling me that I was selfish and wrong and that I should look to God for help."

    "I felt hopeless," she explained, "that I was just going to look like a man in drag for the rest of my life. On my 16th birthday, when I didn’t receive consent from my parents to start transitioning, I cried myself to sleep."

    She said she "eased into coming out as trans," but her parents "felt like I was attacking their image, and that I was an embarrassment to them. They wanted me to be their perfect little straight christian boy, and that’s obviously not what I wanted."

    In fact, Leelah's mother on Facebook posted this note (now hidden) the day her daughter died.

    "My sweet 16 year old son, Joshua Ryan Alcorn went home to heaven this morning. He was out for an early morning walk and was hit by a truck. Thank you for the messages and kindness and concern you have sent our way. Please continue to keep us in your prayers."


    And she explained the isolation her parents made her endure.

    "So they took me out of public school, took away my laptop and phone, and forbid me of getting on any sort of social media, completely isolating me from my friends. This was probably the part of my life when I was the most depressed, and I’m surprised I didn’t kill myself. I was completely alone for 5 months. No friends, no support, no love. Just my parent’s disappointment and the cruelty of loneliness."

    Saying her "death needs to mean something," Leelah wrote, "The only way I will rest in peace is if one day transgender people aren’t treated the way I was, they’re treated like humans, with valid feelings and human rights. Gender needs to be taught about in schools, the earlier the better. My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in the number of transgender people who commit suicide this year. I want someone to look at that number and say “that’s fucked up” and fix it."

    She also scheduled an apology note, writing, "Mom and Dad: Fuck you. You can’t just control other people like that. That’s messed up."

    Scrolling through her Tumblr page may be difficult (trigger warning), but it's important for people to see a part of her hopes and dreams, and her pain.

    There is a Justice for Leelah Alcorn Facebook page.


    Need help or want to talk?

    For transgender people the Trans Lifeline can help: 
    US: (877) 565-8860
    Canada: (877) 330-6366

    The Trevor Project for LGBTQ youth: 1-866-488-7386

    The GLBT National Hotline: 888-843-4564


    This post has been updated to add the Facebook screenshot.

    Hat tip: Tom Morgan
    Image: Tumblr

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    • commented 2015-09-09 13:44:24 -0400
      We haven’t forgotten you Leelah. For everyone struggling with gender identity issues and concerns, there is the transhousingnetwork.com for housing, and the translifeline.org .

    • commented 2015-01-03 15:13:49 -0500
      There was an event in Switzerland for Leelah: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_AE-IXUI6o

    • commented 2015-01-02 12:57:02 -0500
      @chef Naddina and others still referring to HER as a he…she can’t even have dignity in death? What the fuck?? You say you care about HER, but you don’t even know HER, or just flat out paid no attention to the article whatsoever. What the fuck is wrong with you? LEELAH IS A GIRL. SHE. HER.

    • commented 2014-12-31 17:16:15 -0500
      People need to start taking life seriously and get away from a religion that gives them excuses. Excuses are not the answer and neither is a God who give the mentally challenged parents of this poor child the right to turn away in a time of need. The sick minds of these unacceptable excuses for human beings probably feel no shame for their treacherous parenting.. I hope they understand that if there’s a hell that they are surely on their way.

    • commented 2014-12-31 06:46:26 -0500
      On another note all christians should be banned from any kind of Public service around children! No Teaching,No Medical,No Bus driving, nothing around children!

    • commented 2014-12-31 06:37:33 -0500
      This is what I would say to this demon of a Mother!
      What you did to your child is Demonic but so is your Religion!Christian religion is a Lie built on Genocide,Persecutions,Hate Bigotry its Godless!
      To Put this nonsense before your own child you and your husband Killed your own flesh and Blood! DEMONS LIKE YOU SHOULD NOT BREED! Even though he’s not my child,wish I could have reached him before you destroyed his spirit! Would have told him he was not his body, but spirit Soul! That he should be proud of his spirit! To run as far as he could from christian demons even if they are family. Would have told him the truth that its a fragmented incomplete misinterpreted Lie!That all the answers to his lifes Questions were in Vedic Writings the original source to all World religions,real knowledge about God not nonsense!!!
      I hope you suffer of a broken heart so it will wake you up and pull you away from that demonic religion!
      Your other child or children will leave you,when they find out what you did! You do not deserve to have a child!
      And you think some fictional long haired white hippy dude is going to give you a free pass to heaven for any kind of sin? You have a Karmic Debt to pay for sending this child into an unconsciousness disturbed state of mind! Because where your consciousness is at the moment of leaving the Body is where the soul will go! Do not pray for your child it will curse him even more!You and your Husband and the Church people involved in the Death of this child should be put in Jail!
      In NC a group of church people and the family were put in Jail for persecuting their child!He was strong to deal with such abuse and he got help!And the young man is still alive! I will fight for a Law one day to deal with christians who persecute abuse young people even if it is their own children!

    • commented 2014-12-30 20:26:50 -0500
      When will parents put their childen ahead of the (wrong) teachings of their particular church? Her parents obviously care more about what their church thinks rather than how their daughter was feeling. They could have contacted a PFLAG chapter and met other parents of trans kids who would have helped and supported them. It’s obvious from the mom’s Facebook message that she did not accept or understand her daughter’s feelings, and that she did not accept the fact that her daughter committed suicide. For those who want to learn how to be an ally to the transgender community, National PFLAG has created a guide to being a straight ally to the trans community. http://www.straightforequality.org/trans

    • commented 2014-12-30 19:38:08 -0500
      Leelah’s suicide belies the fear, prejudice and sense of shame the transgender community continue to feel for asking what many of us in the ‘straight community’ take for granted, an identity not predicated on religious beliefs, gender bias, misinterpretation or demands that one can only be what others ‘will for them’ ….Why the resistance and why still insist even in death that Leelah was a boy?


    • commented 2014-12-30 19:26:13 -0500
      Carla Wood Alcorn should be tried for deliberately leading to the death of her daughter. Christianity has always been an unforgiving and evil religion that is judgmental as its founder, the Emperor Constantine I wanted when he created his “catholic [universal] church” and bullied his warring bishops at his Council of Nicaea in 325 CE to incorporate all ancient Egyptian theological points and actions from the Trinity to Last Judgment, to Heaven and Hell, to other absurdities to give him and succeeding emperors a handle on controlling the masses out of an unhealthy fear of a fantasy god. Carla’s daughter appears to have been a good person who was rational, unlike the charlatan counselors whom she was taken to see for “reparative therapy.” Never trust a Christian who pretends to be a psychologist if they go to an evangelical extremist coven.

    • commented 2014-12-30 17:51:39 -0500
      It so sad when your family don’t show you support. I know that for so family members it so hard to have a gay family member. But at the end of the day, they are still your child. Love them, talk to them calm, ask questions about the gay communities. You may be surprised how many are now supporting equal rights for every gay person out there. Times are changing for us. That’s awesome!!! But just love your family members always. No Matter Who They Want To Be Or Love..

    • commented 2014-12-30 15:38:54 -0500
      I hope she feels at peace now.
      This is her mother’s Facebook page

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